Sometimes we try too damn hard, Muddle. We burn ourselves out and then feel resentful about it. Take a breather, treat her like you would a stranger for a while and see what happens. You can always go back to seeing her as someone special. It's not like she's going anywhere! I feel your frustration and really do know what it feels like to live what you are describing. Live for Muddle for a bit, it might help.
