H is trying to sweep me off my feet (again), bringing me a flower to work, a bunch when I got home from work and a nice candle lit dinner when I got home from volleyball. It was very sweet, but to be honest it made me so uncomfortable. I have laid out my cards very clearly for him but he wants to 'win me back'. At the moment I would rather he just left me alone to sort out some things. I don't know what I want. There are fleeting moments where I think, 'I suppose we could try again', but they are quickly replaced by the little voice in my head that says, 'what's going to change, how will you make it change?'. Once I have worked that out I'm going to have to figure out how to get it.
Think I need a holiday...
It can't come quickly enough
And now you've spent your life
Waiting for this moment
And when you finally saw it come
It passed you by and left you so defeated.
Scissor Sisters - 'It Can't Come Quickly Enough'
