Blackfoot, H is definitely not a monster. He's just very extreme and he's been very angry. When he loves you, there's nothing like it. My willingness to be controlled was a complete result of that. I wanted him to love me, all the time. When he's angry or upset, he withdraws and I hate that.
If this is true, is it his angry, controlling, negative side that you are really fighting against, or is it the absence of his engulfing type of love, a love that makes you feel like “there’s nothing like it,” that you miss and are fighting to get back (embellishing a little on the “engulfing” part)? The solutions to each of these two issues are different you know. The first is all about him. The second is all about you.
