Does he care? Right now, no. In fact, he would be relieved if you died in a car accident. Sorry, but that's probably true. Then, in a couple of months from now, you might feel relieved if he died in a car accident. And guess what? If this works out between the two of you, those feelings will change.
Um, ouch. Maybe a little harsh? I don't believe any of us, including the MLC'ers causing all this pain, would wish death upon any of us. JMO.
OB, It may be difficult to find pro marriage support; I have found it that way, too. Esp. for some of us that have been at this for a few years. But this BB is full of pro marriage people that will offer up advice and help when you need it most.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.