Blackfoot, H is definitely not a monster. He's just very extreme and he's been very angry. When he loves you, there's nothing like it. My willingness to be controlled was a complete result of that. I wanted him to love me, all the time. When he's angry or upset, he withdraws and I hate that. So I do what he says. It's a mutual thing.

nod nod nod. I know. hes just a boy, and your just a girl. I know how great it felt for you, but boundaries girl, appropriately projected boundaries, so you can be a great woman, with a great guy.
Untill you know where you are in the emotional forest, SIT STILL. Let them run up and down and wash over you, but sit still.
back to the sidelines for me Ra Ra sis boom ba.