You're a good man Jeff. It may have taken all these dratted bumps to get you where you are now - a man your W refuses to recognize. Her loss, but one that you have to deal with as well.

I've known for a long time that when I hit the bottom of the pit there's still room to go when the bottom falls out. The scramble to get your feet underneath you again is not pretty but we really only have the choice to survive. The opposite is not an option, right?

Have you seen The Notebook? chick flick I guess. Towards the end the lady is sitting in a wheelchair in a grey looking room full of other lifeless living people. I cried for myself when I realized that could very well be me if I last that long. boohoo, woe is me...

Having said that, come join me in the Hopefulness forum for the beginning of the next stage of your life.
Make your life about you.

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.