I have been doing pretty good this week and have been letting H have space. He has been really distant and it is so hard to not try to bring him closer to me. We were on the day-to-day roller coaster ride for a while but for the past week or so he has just been so darn distant. Where he used to be much more loving toward me, he hardly even touches me unless I initiate it. I feel like the gap is widening!! It is so scary and hard to remain in control of me and my actions and words!
He said this week that he almost left last week but I believe that to be just blowing smoke since he has always maintained that he has no place to go and isn't ready for that step yet. I guess he just feels trapped at our house/in our marriage right now. He practically spewed venom this week when the C told him that he needed to give up OW in order to work on M. H said no way, not going to do it, need to spend more time with her to draw a conclusion about their R.
In the meantime, I have so many "well-meaning" friends who are telling me to kick him out of the house. I don't want to do that and I know everyone here undertands. I need to tune out those other people and stay the course, right?
