starting the long journey

[jamespb75]

Yesterday was a huge rollercoaster, We had a good time all day, and then I went out to fix the garage door opener. I came back in and she was on the phone with OM. I was going crazy. I actually started having an anxiety attack. She saw that something was wrong and asked me. I told her my feelings, I said it kills me when your on the phone with him. She blew a gasket, saying she doesn't want to be with either of us, and the whole phone call was about her not wanting to be with him. Then she said she couldn't be here and one of us had to move out. We started fighting and she said she was moving out. I told her if she had to, she had to. I wans't going anywhere. I tried talking to her but she was furious. It got really bad, so I retreated into my bedroom to stay away from her. Later on she came in to offer me some pizza. Then things calmed down. We laughed at our Son a little. I asked her if she wanted to talk, but she said no. I went to bed and around 3:00 a.m. she woke me up to see if she was running a fever. Then she went back to her bedroom.

I am having a really hard time with this. I know she is to. She thinks I will never be able to get over the Affair, but I insist I will. I told her she needs to cut off all communication with him. Then I will stop worrying so much. It was a bad one, but I did go overboard with the fight. I should have kept my mouth shut, and let her deal with this. I hope we can work it out later. I left her a note telling her I hope she feels good, and to have a good day. I return home around 5:30. We'll see what kind of mood she is in. I will go on with my day and see what happens.