BI, Hugs to you babe. You spilled your guts. H has definitely heard you, he just cannot answer you right now. He still loves you, he just doesn't quite love himself yet. I see this in the hair combing and the care taking. I think your e-mail was really sincere, probably more so than ever. H heard this loud and clear which is why he probably feels it necessary, more than ever, to talk to you via a counselor. He has so much to process and now that he knows that you understand his torture, he might be able to relax a little and let his guard down.
Again, be grateful for all of the little things coming your way. Push any negative thoughts out of your mind. Let go of the past, it is over and done with. There is NOTHING that you can do to change it. Make room in your heart for all of the goodness that your God has in store for you. Take Care, Mama
