No, you have not gotten off to a bad start here. Not at all.
You, in your frustration, are perfectly normal. We all do it. There are two types of folks who show up here, intially. Ones with guns blazing, and the other so full of remorse and self-recrimination, they can't get out of their own way.
You have spunk. Good for you.
However. The guys here will help you far more than I can, intially. And I hope you listen to them.
You are among friends. Don't go. All you have to do, first and foremost, is check your ego at the door.
