Well, I'm not sure yet - think I'll have to eat a few more chocolate bars to find out. It's not the milk - I eat cheese all the time, no problem.
Fearless, I've been very supportive and a good sounding board for H. I do tend to have a masculine "fixer" approach to things, so i do need to be careful - sometimes he's just like a woman who just wants to vent but doesn't want me to offer solutions. He knows I'll support his choice.
The dynamic is complicated though by his resentment of my unemployment. He doesn't understand why I was unable to work while my thyroid issues weren't under control (he thinks I'm neurotic because my blood tests looked okay even though I couldn't think or barely function. I've since learned that there are plenty of patients like me out there who don't do well on the standard regimen, and am now doing much better on different therapy - so much so that I am now working part-time with similar patients).
Never mind that he's been gone all the time, leaving me with full home responsibility and homeschool for our two teens. He doesn't WANT to know, just wants to believe I could walk out tomorrow and earn what he earns despite the fact that I've been on the mommy track for 20 years so that he could pursue HIS profession full-bore.
I'm not in the black yet with my new practice, and won't be for a bit. At my current hours, I will be able to replace the cut in pay he took to take this job, at best. If I worked full time, I might eventually be able to earn 1/2 of what he does.
He's just not realistic about the finances. He's encouraging D to apply to a private college that will cost us 45,000 a year, while putting S20 and soon S15 through college, but thinks he can just quit working and I'll be able to support all of us with no change in lifestyle. Magical thinking,really.
So i have to tread very lightly. I want him to be happy in his work situation. I want to develop my own income (because i fear ever being dependent on him again). I don't want to sacrifice my kids well-being by going to work full time this year. Just too many balls I'm juggling here.
