Looking backward but only to look forward SIX

[sage]

Guys -- I'm sorry to have posted and run...disappeared actually! The only time I feel like I have to post is during the work day and I feel quite weird about doing that (boss is an IT guru and is most certainly keeping track!).

Anyway...I do very much appreciate the insights and support and help from you all so please don't take my silence as a lack of gratitude.

The weekly dates have been put into place (we've only missed one week -- we were all horribly sick) and seem to be making a positive difference. H is definitely more relaxed, more lowkey, more I don't know...everything good. I'm also trying to be more attentive, to be more focused on him when possible (much more often and more directed) though truth be told, I'm sure I could still use an attitude adjustment more often than not. I'm still quick to leap to negative conclusions in my mind regarding his actions and even though I don't act on those thoughts, I'm sure they're clouding my judgement. I've got to get back into a more positive, let it go, frame of mind.

And, of course, regularly posting would help that a great deal, no?

Positives:

1. H has emailed and texted me a few times today -- all good stuff!

2. He acknowledged that I had a rough night last night (as baby did)

3. He told Charlotte that "mommy looks good in her new jeans" -- I don't :-( but it was nice to hear anyway!

BBL, Sage