starting the long journey

[jamespb75]

Well, yesterday was a bad step backwards. She wanted to see OM really bad, she started to doubt us. We got into a little confrontation, and I told her that she had to do what she felt, and I wasn't going to stop her. I felt awful and my emotions were running strong. I had to leave for an hour, It would have got worse. I came back and she started getting ready. We were in a bad spot, she was leaving and I was upset. I let her go, she said she wasn't sure if she would be home or not. I wanted to explode. Kept it in and just let her be on her way. She called me and was in a better mood, Until she started talking about how mad she was because her parents would give her money for a DBing coach but not a divorce. She feels they were controlling her. We got into it and ended up both upset. She went to OM house, which is 2 hours away. They ended up getting into a very big fight, and it has supposedly ended. I believe her because she did call me once around 9 to tell me they were fighting, and that she would be home tonight. Then she called me an hour later and she had left. We talked about it and she told me what they had fought about. She came home very confident about us, and we had a good talk.

I know he will still keep calling her, and I get upset when they talk. I just have to give it time for it to go away. We are going to spend the day together, and we made some vague plans to go out this weekend. I feel better about it now, but it still scares the heck out of me. I sometimes felt plotted against, and there is a scam those two are pulling. But then she shows me a little sign, and I wipe that away.

I think I might have jumped the gun, can you blame me, it's been six months of agony. I should of stayed in Infedelity section a little longer. But one day maybe I will be confident enough to Shout out another one busted. But for the mean time I will keep my lips sealed.