Where do I find my sexuality,,, where do I find the old me and the feeling sensual? My DR said it is all mostly in my brain that until I can trust I will not allow myself to be vulnerable. that is scary..... So that means I need to let go and just know just feel the love and trust it.
I feel it come up in me a little bit every now and then and then it just disappears. it is truly frustrating. because once I am making love it is so beautiful. I think I will look it up on the internet today.
It consumes my thoughts. I have a few books and it ( my sexuality) is still underneath all the layers of years of hurt.
I am better and yet my sensuality has not magicaly reappeared,,,, I want to feel how I used to. Still trying.... God bless...
