Feeling down this morning. Wife was very cold and distant as usual as we got the kids up today.
How can they stop loving us after so long? Why don't they miss us? In my case, I have invested 21+ years of my life in this woman and this relationship. How can it possibly end like this? What is happening?
I know I'm supposed to realize that she's in MLC and therefore nothing will make sense, but it's just to painful and confusing. I've just finished reading lots of other posts and I fear I too will be served and divorced before I know what hit me.
Separation seems my only hope, but my wife just sees the separation as an opportunity to finally have private space and time to pursue her fantasy relationship with her friend from 4th grade.
The world's gone crazy.
Last night as my wife went to work, my D6 hugged her and began to cry "I don't want you to leave." Mind you D^ knows nothing (except by instinct) about the impending separation and probably divorce. She was so pained just by her Mom going off to work. All I could do was imagine this scene playing out when we begin to shuttle the kids back and forth between us, with every leave-taking being filled with her tears and anguish. It's too terrible to contemplate. I wonder whether seeing our innocent daughter and son suffering will wake her up. I do not have high hopes.
-SH
"Now some kind of man, he can't do anything wrong. If I see him I'll tell him you're waiting." ---Lowell George
