New to Piecing II

[COG]

I've been a little laxed in posting this baby step.

My W gave me a card on V-day. First one in about 7 years. She thanked me for having passion, and for all that I've done for her and our R. She also said that I deserve the best.

I liked the card, but was a little unsatisfied because I did'nt get sex with the card. But she has'nt written anything that positive to me in a VERY long time. She's more committed than ever to make our M work. It's just her desire for sex that seems to be getting less and less. On a scale of 1 - 10 she's gone from a 2 to a zero or maybe even into the negatives. Although I think maybe last year when she was a 2, she might have been faking it, was actually a zero all along. Well the good news is it can't get any worse, there's not much less than NO sex, so it's all uphill from here!

Other good news is that we can talk about it, a little. I've backed way off on pursuing, almost never pursue anymore. I slipped up the other night but nobody's perfect. Giving her sexual space seems to make her more comfortable. I'm working on communicating how important sex is for me in nonthreatening, nonjudgmental, nonbegging ways. I'd like to try out a 2x4 sometimes, but my guess is that won't work too well.

So I'll continue on with the soft touch. Hope, and pray. I'll keep myself in decent shape, dress the best I can, and try to avoid her turnoffs. Life is soooo busy right now too. We're always tired. That definately does'nt help the sitch. But we are so close, have such a nice R. It's deep, it's honest, it's loving, it's comfortable and fulfilling. It's just not very sexual. That'd be a nice addition.

Could you all give that some prayer time for me!

Thanks,

COG