I remember one incident in my LD days where H once sexually wrestled me to the ground and I started to cry. I was such an idjit then.
I also find the ultra male top fantasy erotic, but I wouldn't want to live it. I think it would affect me psychologically after awhile. In a LTR, it asks to much of men, to deny the times they are feeling weak, sick, unsure, etc.
I find I am becoming more immune to my fantasy life. My quest is to make reality work. I have more compassion for the person my H is.
Please expound on the wrestling incident and why you where a idjit, ( I think it would help Chromo... not to mention assist me in my endeavors with poets, hehe.) and also about how it would affect your mental state after ahwile. I want to understand. There is something important there. I just cant put my finger on it.
Between this post and a couple of Mojo's its almost enough to put a warm fuzzy in this icebox where my heart used to be. Then I remember reality...
Dinah and the schemelikites? is genesis .... 30? cant remember...checking...34
quote lil "after Jacob wrestled with the angel, Jacob asked for a blessing, and the angel renamed him "Israel" which means "wrestles with God." yeppers. I concur.
Ive really been considering judaism. Despite the rituals. Whenever lil has a thread I want to ask her about how...There is just this pesky issue with my respect for the founder of christianity. now if I could find a good mix of the two... I think Ill call it blackfootyism....blackfootianity... hmm one sounds like a profanity and the other sounds like a canoodling technique.
