Still in the fight

[Heywyre]

I don't blame you. I know I couldn't live in limbo like that forever either. I know I give our R one day at a time right now but there will come a time I will have to look at it seriously and say "ok, are we moving forward with this and, if not, I need to pull the plug". Right now its still a little early in the game I figure. And for the most part (although the black days do seem to override the sunny ones) I think we are moving in the right direction

But I will not live like this forever, life is to short to be miserable - I want to be in a relationship where two people love and care about each other, they want to be with each other more than anyone else. That doesn't mean its the only person they want to be with, it just means that one person in their life means more to them than anyone else. I don't think that is living in a fantasy land - I think its quite obtainable. But if that effort is not coming from both sides and if one wants to have their cake, icing and sprinkles while the other one gets the leftover crumbs, it ain't gonna work my friend.