Hello Piecing...I copied and pasted my journaling at the Separated BB. Advice, comments, or suggestions are always welcome. I know I am new here and need to get out and read/comment on other posts, I am just really nervous about being here at this point in my R. Thanks in advance for reading
Originally Posted By: Separated4Now
New thread...I have been trying to stay away from the BB a bit because I get caught up here and forget to GAL. When H calls and asks what I am doing, now I don't have to say "reading" because I don't want to tell him "posting all our business online". Anywho I am trying to keep my cool, you all know how I get so I am concentrating on the following: having expectations=NO NO/ having patience=HAVE TO!
Yesterday H calls and we chat for a bit then he asks if I want to have dinner. I did a long "ummm", because I actually had plans and was running through them in my head to see if it would be a go for dinner. Since H said a late dinner would be fine we decided to meet at the apt. We chatted when I got there and went to dinner. It was very nice and relaxed, we talked about work, school, our nieces...just regular stuff.
When I started telling H about my sister and BIL buying a house I told H that they were doing a VA loan. H said "that's what we are going to do" but I did not get all weepy or give him that past response of "really?!?!" with big hopeful puppy dog eyes. I am quite proud of myself and just continued with my story of telling him about the features they wanted most. We were joking around and laughing a lot but H kept saying he was exhausted. I told him we did not have to do dinner but he said he wanted to because I make him feel better. I just smiled and he smiled back but since I did not want him to get uncomfortable, I faked a gag and we both laughed.
We held hands for a bit during dinner and went back to the apartment and I told myself to only stay a minute because H was tired and dinner was unexpected anyway. So we chatted for a few, just about regular things and H said he wanted to do things with me this week. I was happy about that and when he started to get quiet, I decided to leave. H walked me down to the car and he puckered up for one of his "still not ready for sex yet" kisses, I kissed him then hugged him and I went home. During the evening I did mess up and ask if he wanted to stay over (my place is QUIET) but H said he had to put together some equipment for a morning dive and I just said "oh yeah, I forgot about that" and let it go. Why do I always have to throw in a nice f-up in there during a perfectly pressure free, pursuit free, and stress free evening?!?!
It did not have as bad of an effect as I feared because H wanted to chit chat for about 20 minutes when I called to let him know I got back ok. H has been asking me to call him when I get back to where I stay lately and I love that. Even when he is exhausted (like last night) he will still walk me to my car and then stay up until I call and let him know I am back. So the unexpected night was really great and although it may be a TINY baby step, H puckering up for a kiss was a nice moment.
Off to check in on my favs...miss you guys/gals!!!
