Still in the fight

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Hey;
That has got to be hard, and now this on top of everything. I agree we worry too much, I sometimes think it is a self-fulfilling prophesy, if we are worried about S and how much they love us, or if they would leave.

It would seem that detachment and GAL are the opposite of that, I choose not to worry about those things, they will be what they will be.

To that end, what I have done to get a life; went out last night without W, listened to some great music but otherwise had a terrible time. I seem so lost w/out her, but reported in the positive when she asked(and I was able to "sell" it). Although I did point out that the band was asking where she was because they were hoping we would get the dancing started.

180- We have always said our girls needed to wait until they were 16 to get their ears pierced. Both D14 and 11 have been talking about it recently. I talked to my W about it and said "16 really is pretty arbitrary, Ds have obviously thought about it, and I though it would be OK, what do you think?"

I have always been the one to be the hardass, no ears pierced, little make-up,etc. W has also complained that I don't talk to her about things agreeing to them, so we will see. Initial response was very positive.

I am slowley getting to the place where I feel less and less about what W says and does, I am detaching, but at the same time I am moving away from her. Each little chip that falls away moves me one step closer to just being done.