8 - there is no such thing as "normal" in our lives and hasn't been for a long, long time. When are you going to realize that?

I don't even remember what normal is anymore. They flip-flop; send twisted, confusing messages; say things that can be misconstrued. There just doesn't seem to be any rhyme or reason, it just "is"

On the brighter side (yes, there is a brighter side - occasionally) I have noticed with my H that his confused state (at times) is a little clearer - does that sound confusing in itself? What I actually mean is, although he (and I) and still very confused where all this is going (or not going, whatever the case might be) there are sporatic times of clarity, actually times when I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I don't know if that is just my optomistic way of thinking (which, by the way, is getting thin) but I can see the changes in him. I just hope I can hang in there long enough to see it through because, to tell you the truth, my patience is definitely running low

Heywyre

M - 57
H - 65
1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02
2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06
together 21 years
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Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)