Still in the fight

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Ford;
My day was OK, despite last night and this AM, W has been civil and eager to help. I roasted a turkey for dinner and as she came home and saw the menue, decided mashed potatoes were in order, went about fixing them up and they were spectaculer. Not a word about last night. I fought the urge to "talk" and just let it be.

Tonight was good, friend's band was playing at local pub, D14 told me about it , I asked W if she wanted to go, "No thanks" was the answer. After the first set, all the guys were asking, "where is your W?, we need you guys up here dancing." I just said she couldn't make it tonight, but hopefully next time.

It was really sad as I watched other couples dancing and thought to myself, "that was us just 3 months ago, what happened?"

Whatis:

I know my wife is no idiot, she is one of the most insightful, smart, intuitive peaple I know. I think that is part of what makes it so painful to watch, this is not who she is. I can look froma distance and see that, but when I come in for a closer look, I am confused.

I have no idea anymore what normal is.