You did what you had to. Be proud of the amazing woman you are. You have fought hard and protected your son. And we all know that the ow does squirm when she reads your name. She could never live up to you. How, you feel about puffy may or may not change. Someday, he will understand what he has done and what he has lost. Please do not leave this board. You need to be here and you are cherished here. My heart bleeds for you and the pain you are in. Let me hug you, then go have a drink and cry or do whatever you need to do.