I have some ideas for you, but you aren't going to like them. If you would like to seriously discuss some possibilities that might give you back a fighting chance with your husband, I will be happy to discuss them with you. Just let me know.
My emotions were all over the place when I read this and hope glimmered for a moment. I can't stop the separation process though-I have made my decision and must stand by it. I have already filed once before and stopped the process, so my credibility is on the line. Also, although I want to save my M, I will not stay in the M as it is. You see, I am not looking to the past and saying that because of it I must leave. I am looking to the future and seeing that my H doesn't see the errors in the past so that we can change them in the future...it's because I can't see the future as being any different than our past that I must leave.
I may not have done a great job or even a good job the past two and a half years, but I did the best I could and I give H credit for the same. I'm emotional, I've gone back and forth, my actions haven't always been consistent with my emotions and vice versa. I've been confused, I've been reactive. It was still the best I could do. And now, after going so long with a minimum display of love or respect, I am running on 'E'. My H cannot even tell me he still loves me. I don't want someone who doesn't want me and I am worth more than sticking around contorting myself to make him want me. I can't respect myself doing that. I am a good person NOPS, and to see that shouldn't take as much effort on my H's behalf as it seems to. Even after the way H has treated me, I can still see the good in him and I think it's worth fighting for, but he doesn't seem to feel the same way about me. For once I agree with Cobra in that if H wasn't done, he would be sending different signals.
Re-reading what I've written above, I don't know what my answer is to you but based on what I said and what your suggestions are, you can probably see the answer better than I can. Either way, I appreciate your concern for me and please tell MrsNops the same.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
