Sometimes we all need a pat on the back and a good pick me up. I have been feeling the needs for one of those for a while. Maybe it is just me, but I do tire, or everyone telling me how much better of I am without my XH. That I should be happy that I don't have to deal with him anymore. That I have so much to offer someone, I just need to get out there. Or that is have been almost 2 years since he left the 1st time and over a year since he left this last time, I just need to move on and get over it.
Sometimes I just wish someone would tell me how proud they are of me. How proud they are of how I have dealt with this all. How they are proud that I was so strong and continue to be strong during such a hard time. That it is okay to be sad and to cry every now and again still, that it is only natural. That it is okay to still love him. That it is okay to still care for him and worry about it. That it is okay to talk about him, and not feel guilty or feel like people are rolling their eyes at me.
I guess it would just be nice to have that supportive shoulder to cry on when I need a good cry. The kind of shoulder that loves me unconditionally and knows when I need to just be held and when I need a reality check.
Just looking for someone to tell me I am "normal".
