dearest brue,

we have been going along this path together for most of the time, and it seems we are once again in the same place, affectionately known as "the stupor phase." Seems like you've really captured what is going on for several people, me included, as far as feeling like you are at a turning point.

I don't know if I'd worry too much about sitting and staring. I think sitting and staring serves a great purpose if there is something percolating underneath, and it sounds like for you something was percolating. Me too.

One of the insights that has comforted me is to recognize that choosing to go on more or less the way I have been (except without H) is a perfectly legit choice for now. I may want to go down a different path tomorrow, or next year. But I can actively choose not to make a whole lot of changes right now, if I want. This is very freeing, somehow, to me. Maybe some or all of us feel too much pressure to make massive life changes just because we are free of our WASs. Maybe small, incremental change is healthier, and will lead to more successful and bigger change in the long run. Just a thought.

I'm glad you've posted again. You've got me thinking and I think I'll go muddy up my own thread instead! Come visit, I'm having a shi**y day (Now there's an attractive invitation if ever I heard one).

Hugs
AH