I feel I've had enough

[kaydeekay]

Journaling:

Limited contact with H this week. He did call me on V-day to wish me Happy Valentine's Day which I was very surprised by. H asked if I would call him at work later, in fact he begged me. I did call him but he didn't answer/or hear his page to pick up the phone. At the end of the day he called me and asked me about my day and wanted me to have a good night. He said "I love you" and then immediately said, "oh, I'm sorry. I'll talk to you later, bye." In the past, H has let it slip with the ILY's and immediately apologizes. The first time he did it, he said something to the fact "Oh, I'm sorry...you don't want to hear that." This was shortly after he and OW broke things off.

H calls me this morning as I was getting ready to go into a staff meeting. He told me to have a good day and said "You can call me if you want to." I told him okay.

I'm conflicted right now if I should call H or not. I don't think I will. I'm suppose to have lunch with H next week (at his request). So, we'll see how that goes.

Am I wrong to think that H is being controlling with the setting up the lunches and telling me when to call him? Or, is this his way of trying to reconnect with me?