I'm new here and need help

[hannahsmom]

Hi there - overall it was a good week
I had a little bit of a meltdown this morning ( in private ) but I was able to bounce back faster than I ever have before

I am unemployed and this DBing is valuable with helping me with my self esteem and self worth I am trying to focus on ANYTHING I can find that is good and ok right now I got some nibbles on some jobs I applied for today and I actually have a phone interview scheduled next week !

I am finding it difficult relating to friends who are in new relationships right now
One friend in particlar is in a brand new releationship and I find myself being very negative around her
It does not make me feel great about myself as I know I should be happy for her
I feel like I am being a bad friend
I'm trying to stay away from her when I'm feeling very low as that seems to be the time when I get that way - its complicated because I have only chosen to share whats happening at home with a few friends - the ones I know that will support my efforts to try to keep my M - this person will not agree with me DBing - I am sure of it - and I hear the way she talks abou others in my situation - it just gets so toxic and it is not a haven for me

I need to GAL with teh support of people who understand me right now - it is easier not to tell everyone - for now anyway
especially since H is still home and I hope it stays that way

Anyway - keep on keeping on folks
HMOM

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