On average (so "they" say) piecing a marriage takes between 1-3 years - wholly crap do I have a ways to go!

I am totally where you are SD. Just when I think things are ticking along just fine I get some teensy little flash of the past that reminds me not to let my guard down, not to trust, not to be happy - all those truly negative things.

Let yourself feel the emotion at the time it happens and then let it pass - it is so much easier to be happy than to try and stay miserable

Heywyre

M - 57
H - 65
1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02
2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06
together 21 years
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Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)