If you were to believe in a God, or an infinite wisdom of some type, and you asked His forgiveness, do you think He would give it? And if He gave it, in His infinite wisdom... yet you were not able to give it to yourself, in face of His forgiveness... what, then, would that say of your faith in infinite wisdom?
Since I don't really believe in God, let's put it this way. I believed in the love of my H and I asked his forgiveness. He didn't give it. In the face of that, how on earth can I forgive myself? Just seems too self serving. When my M is falling apart and my family is crubmling before my eyes, where do I get off forgiving myself, ya know? It's just too soon.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
