BI, I think you're hitting on something really profound here. Letting go of the illusion of control. If you focus on the impact your actions have on another person you're not really living. You're not doing justice to yourself. God gave you the gift of your body and mind and heart and soul - are you respecting and appreciating this gift by torturing yourself? Let go of control and allow yourself to focus on caring for you. Allow yourself to channel God's love and will rather than trying to substitute your own.
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ” – Albert Einstein
