God you sound like me. I do not want a divorce. Tomorrow (our 6 yr anniversary) will be 1 month since he left. 1 minute everything seems OK, not good, OK. And we laugh, talk, etc. Then the next (and I KNOW its loser friends influence) he is a JERK! I get sick to my stomach. I shake perfusely. Trembling, shaking, like after you have an epidural or when your REALLY REALLY cold. My whole body. I read that its a bodies way of dealing w/ stress. I am getting so mentally sick that my body is shutting down. Everyone says "you cant do this to yourself" Well frig off because until your in MY position, you have NO idea right!?!?!?! I am so sick of "you have to be there for the children and live for the children" and the infamous "well life goes on" OR "your better off w/o him" SHUT UPPPPPPPPPPPP I say!
