Hi sweepsr, C'mon, Is this your return to the BB's or is it the first time?
This is not my first time here. It started in '03 with a 10 month long affair on her part. She just pushes everyone away and throws herself in work. Her best friend and i joke how she is trying to save the world one restaurant at a time. I just feel so kicked ya know? Its all so confusing. One minute she hugs me cause I bought her favorite things grocery shopping. The next she comes home and pours a drink. Sits on the couch and only talks about work. She doesnt ask about my day or anything. Then off to bed. We can go almost 24 hours without seeing each other but she wont come home and hug me or miss me. As for moving on..NO! I have tried and was pulled back twice.
I guess I just dont know how to do a 180 anymore. I cant for the life of me figure what Im doing wrong. If i never made dinner or didnt pick up the kids etc. I would then do that. The only thing i can think of doing is what i said to her. I will have other relationships. No lying about it. Just point blank honesty. "If you dont want me then someone else will!" Its better then being a liar or cheater. Im telling her the truth and getting what I NEED. I put my cards on the table!! Granted i havent done anything. its just words but dont you think it would give her the kick in the ass she needs? Even if it means I go out to a movie but let her think Im out at a bar.
