Just an update. Not alot going on in the homefront. I have stopped calling H and have decided to give him absolute space. A few weeks ago, he was determined that he wanted a D. There were a few days that he was suppose to come over to see the kids and didn't. I didn't call him and didn't show him how angry it made me that he wasn't keeping his word. So when he did call and told me that he has been doing some thinking, it confused me but put new light into the sitch. He has called me mostly and I have tried to keep it light. We now joke around on the phone and when he does come over.

The other night while he was here, he mentioned again that he has been doing alot of thinking. His comment was "Some things have been going on and I have had to take a step back and do some thinking." He said that he would tell me what he has been thinking about but not right now. Then looked at me and said "is that ok?" I said "yeah" I just asked him if I should take that as a good or bad sign. He said "take it however you want." So no real answer there.

I am praying that OW is continuing her quest of being ignorant and he is seeing that his fantasy world really isn't all that great. That the family he has here is worth the fight. Who knows. Only time will tell.

Ben has already smacked me around and told me to see the good signs. I am. I just need to keep my distance and stay patient. "All in good time, all in good time." (quote from Wizard of Oz) \:\)

"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."