I think you're doing well judging by your post. You sound positive, upbeat and in it for the long haul. I commend you - it's not easy.

....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am
I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon
~ Avril Lavigne ~
..."Nobody's Fool"...

me=ok /D'd since 7/07
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