But, I'll give a quick summary here too. I had an A a few years ago. I ended the A when I realized how harmful it could be and that I wanted my W and family more, even if I wasn't really happy. I kept the A a secret. However, my W got a clue about it and suspected. She tried to fix our M and make me happy. It worked for a while, but failed. Maybe it failed because I did something wrong, or because she wasn't sincere in her changes, or other reason. She wasn't happy in M either, I guess even more unhappy than I.
Then, her first love found her via internet. She had a phone/email EA for a few months, then drops the ILYBININWY speech on 10/3/06, leaves me and kids on 10/5. She tells me that she knows about my A and that it didn't bother her and that's part of the way she knew she didn't love me anymore. On 11/4 she came back. I think that's all the basics.
Last Sunday, during R talk, she says that my A did really hurt her. I apologize profusely, sincerely, and offer to do anything. She says she doesn't know if she can ever trust me again.
So, if you all can forgive me, can you give me advice? What can I do to make up for my terrible mistake? Can she ever trust me again? (Of course, I have my own trust issues now too, but in many ways I don't think her A is really the issue. Mine isn't in some ways either. The issue was our underlying unhappiness and it's causes). If your W or H who cheated on you (it hurts to admit, publicly, that I'm the cheater) what would you like them to do or say?
M45, W45,S15, D10, Bomb 10/3/06, Moved back in 11/6/06, finally ILY 9/07 last thread
