I started to post here this afternoon and I had not gone to excercise yet and I was going to take it easy but then I just got up and went. So now I am here posting at Nite and I feel great actually. I nstead of feeling like I cannot do it , i got and said the H*ll with it I am a little under the weather but I can do this and sure enough I did. I am so proud of me . I am also proud of the fact that I have not talked to my H all day and I am doing ok,, I miss him but I am not worrying or getting upset!!!!!! ...... he said he would call today so I am sure I will hear from him later. I like this how he calls and feels more comfortable,, it is so much better. He usually equates me not calling alot with ~~~ I do not care. That is not good. And when I call alot and he is not very nice it just creates more anxiety for me. Dunno what changed but it sure feels awesome ,, I feel more secure. I will keep working on me , I am going to the gym daily and eating right too. I hope when he comes home he feels better about himself.
He was sooooo adorable on Friday nite he called me @12:30 am he was at a concert and he wanted me to hear the music he called me at least 4 more times and the last time was @ 4:30 am and he said he was "home" and he loved me very much. On Saturday afternoon when he called he said ILY again and that he missed me and for him that is a " 180" he is usually to " macho" or stubborn to be sooooooooooooo ~~~ "mushy". I felt so very special and like I said I dunno what brought on this softening or change of heart but it sure is nice.
Thank you all so much for being here for me. God bless...
