Thanks. I know I will probably get to a point where I am frustrated with H about the sexual relationship again. That seems to be an inevitable part of this R. However, maybe the lack of sex is equally reflective of character flaws of mine as much as his.
I'm just tired of hitting my head against a brick wall. Yes, the accident did put a few things in perspective. Having a healthy family is priceless, having an H who cares about me and our family is priceless, sex is icing. Sometimes I get the cake with the icing and sometimes just the cake. But hey, cake is pretty good on its own too.
Don't get me wrong. I will never get to the point of being a doormat about this. I will never go happily without sex for weeks on end, never feel like I don't want an H who chases me around the house with an ice cube for nefarious purposes...(Oops sorry, HD tangent there).
You get my point. It it snowing/raining/freezing raining this afternoon in the Baltimore/VA/DC/Southern Maryland area and I am supposed to pick up my new car and the check from the bank this afternoon. H is so pleased with the deal he got on the car.
