One step at a time.........

[*KS*Chick*]

Despite the lousy weather, all is well.

The kids are busy writing out their Valentine's cards and planning their class parties for Wednesday.

The older ones will be also be home next weekend so that will be fun and we will celebrate D19 birthday.

I am going to be taking a little break from the boards for a while as I need to sort through some things.

I also know and have been made aware that I have offended some here with my attitude and my way of thinking. And although I have apologized to some here, there are others who can not accept my words.

And yes, that is their problem, but I will keep my distance for a while just to let things calm down a bit. This needs to be a safe place for everyone to be able to share without feeling threatened.

I do not want people to feel like I will throw God into everything. For me it worked to pray and to allow Him to direct my paths, each one of us has their own way of coping with the pain.

I have tried to be as honest as possible about my journey through my Husband's MLC.

Many of those who were here when I first arrived saw a pathetic fool who refused to just listen and be still. You have seen me at my very worst and are begining to see me at my very best.

When I first came here I wanted to understand why my life was falling apart and what the heck was wrong with my Husband.

Instead I had to learn about what was wrong with me so that I could get strong and be mentally prepared to handle my life regardless as to whether he came back or not.

So now I am in a good place and I have learned so much from so many here and it has been the very best therapy ever.
I am no longer afraid of the unknown I am now looking forward to it with my Husband.


Blessings,
XXXXX

praying for you BND - I appreciated your input on my threads.