Hi Cheriberry, sorry you are here with the rest of us! I know exactly how you feel...you are lost, lonely and blaming yourself for actions you can't control...I am right there with you. My H left the week before xmas by telling me he wasn't happy blah blah...admitted OW about 3 weeks later. Wants nothing to do with me and when he talks to me it is in a very crappy tone (works wonders for my self esteem! UGH) In about the last two weeks (since finding this site) I have started to do a 180...only talk to him when I have to..pleasant but not overly forthcoming with information...since I have started doing this his tone has been much nicer to me...slightly more conversation and he has left messages twice this week...this is huge because he hasn't left a message in the 8 weeks he has been gone. My situation is under "We're seperated...What now?" then "I need help" I really feel your pain I am living it with you! Unfortunately, when he is nice I get my hopes up! I know I shouldn't...I just can't help it...imLin you are wise...what do you think?