Hey O;
I'm doing OK, 2 day committee meeting up in Chicago, easy to GAL when you are 6 hours from home.

Met up with friends in the city, played a ton of darts, and even got hit on.(several times ) I was surprised at how good that felt. I think when we are totally involved in a R, we put off some kind of signal, I can count on one hand the number of times I have been hit on in the last 10 years, at least that I noticed.

The problem is that even though it felt good, I didn't even think for a moment about anything other than my wife. How much I wished she was there, how much fun we used to have, and how much I miss doing things with her.

It really does help though, I called to talk to the kids tonight and ended up talking to her for awhile, then longer, it is like she didn't want to get off the phone, we talked about the kids, what she did today, the bad weather, my visit with old friends.(no I didn't tell her about getting hit on.)

It really confuses me when she does this, I just don't get how she can at one moment want to firebomb her family, and the next talk to me like nothing has happened. It just does not add up. I know that she is upset and confused, and that this is not the "real" woman that I am married to, but it is just so strange, and I think that is what worries me so much, what if this is the new "real" her? I get the feeling that her response to GAL is "good, he needs to move on." It is like she is waiting around to make sure I am going to be OK when she leaves.

I just don't know anymore.

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Me 43, waw 44, 3 kids(D15,D12,S6)Married 19yr, together 27yr. Bomb 11/27/06, Separated 3/1/07 Divorce filed 4/18/07,

"Because it is in giving that we receive; In forgiving that we obtain forgiveness; In dying that we rise to eternal life" St. Francis