ok here's something I've been pondering for a while and I know the response I will get is DON'T DO IT!!! but I soooo want to hire someone to follow h for a month...to ease my worry that he may still be seeing ow or some other ow's for that matter...guess I just don't like his job and the freedom it gives him and now that I know he spent time with another woman I am ever more insecure about his whereabouts during the day...I try to believe that their r wsa not physical as they both claim it not to be (how pathetic if it were me I would have)but there are times when I think I am being lied to about the whole thing..does it make a difference...well obviously since I have thoughts that he was physical with her and am still letting him try to reconcile then I would say no it doesn't but I would still like to know the truth...maybe I do know the truth and maybe not...will I ever know??? probably not. what will having him followed do for me??? may ease my worry that he still stops by to see her...may show me some things I don't want to see...but should know... will I actually do it??? probably not, should have done it a year ago...but then if I did it a year ago...h would not be here as I would have known he was lying to me about not talking to ow and I would have discovered his visits to her house and surley not believed nothing to be going on.
I don't know! LL who is insecure but also knows that it matters not what happens she will be ok, just doesn't want to be played a fool!!
