Cheri....first...take a few deep breaths....I know when I was in your state I was barely breathing!....
Then...give us a little more information....how old are you and H....how long together/married.....how many kids and how old....
Then this is the important part...keep reading here...you will find gems of wisdom....I know this place helped me survive the 18 months my H was gone....He didn't even want sex....he wanted nothing to do with me and in fact slept on his office floor and on friends couches until he found a place....
You need to read Divorce Busting and Divorce Remedy....but really just read as much as you can here....ask questions...vent here....this will help you defer your anger and hurt away from your H and your children....they see you hurting and this compounds their own hurt....I remember holding my daughter and sobbing in her arms....she was 18 and acted 40....but I had to remember she was hurting for me and the loss of her dad...
The good news is that no matter how bad things seem...they will get better....you might even save your marriage in the process...
But first....breathe....read....and work on building yourself up...your children need you like never before!
