LL, don't you think the thoughts will always be there to some degree? Somewhere along the paths we are taking we have to make the choices to forgive, not for the people that have hurt us, but for us. We will never forget what we have had to endure.How can we, but learning to forgive and find the good in all that we have found out about ourselves will make the bad memories fade a bit more. I truly believe God has a plan for us(I won't get all religious!!)He has given us these challenges in life and the strength to get through. Boy I think I rambled on too much. I feel good things for you, you are so strong. Sue