of the 5 nights he comes here I do go out at least one...just take this past week for example and the upcomming,sat night I went out with dbrs while he was with kids at home, sun he didn't come home, mon he did and I was here (or talk bad bad he's mixed)I went out for a couple hours shopping (24hr store) tues he comes here I go out to a movie with friend, come home nice time for the rest of evening with him (read last post) tonight he is comming (he was "thinking" of comming, I said would be nice if you do cause I will still be scared from the movie last night, I will read my book and just know you're here) thurs he is comming but I am going out with some friends to see yet another movie.. fri don't know what his plans are... sat he is comming to be with the kids and I am going to a wedding with my mother (even though with my mother h is still threatend by the other men there) sun we are going to the football game together... so you see how much time do I have to spend away from my home... I am not always available to him... the only thing is when i do go out I come home even if late..
h is leaning toward comming home... he is just trying... ow still has place in his heart and it tears at him keeping him from comming home completely... what I know he doesn't ow will always be in his head to some degree is like and alchololic.. they may stop drinking but the pull is there still just gets to be less and less over time when they work on the rest of things.... how long can I wait for him to realize this??? I still do not know... the more nights like last night the less time it will take. LL
