Well I just returned from my morning workout and I feel exhausted. During My workout I actually felt like I was working sooooooo hard just to get thru it. I did less than I normally do but I am not going to beat myself up about it. I am just going to keep taking small steps and get strong again. I am doing much better emotionally and I dunno If the medicine is already working or I am just still down from my attack on Thursday and then I also had one on Friday Nite. I feel just a calm about me, and I like it. I feel like I can focus some more and at the same time I feel like I am going on slow motion, maybe I need to get used to being somewhat more relaxed,, I will be calling my doctor in a bit to see what he says. I am sure it also helps that my H is being sweet as cake. IT IS AMAZING really,, I have also been just being me on the phone with him and have just let go trmendously, I was starting to watch everything I said and it was tense for me and it lead to very boring conversations. It is as though after my episode on Thursday,, I have been allowing myself to slow down and just take life in. I us to feel so rushed abd stressed. I guess nervous exhaustion will lead you to take it easy! I even talked to my kids ( I have 5 kids 4 are here at home)and told 'em I love you guys and I need you to do more around the house I can no longer be superwoman mom has to take care of mom too,, they are doing awesome.
I feel so humbled by all the support I receieve here. You all are the best. Take care and smile. God bless...
