I am so with you Sol - its hard not to say hurtful/stupid things when we are falling apart inside. After all, I don't know about you, but sometimes I would just like to see H hurt so much, literally see him hurt. I know that sounds cruel but I feel as though it would make me feel better to know he's feeling a little pain too (which I know he is but doesn't show it). I know its the anger I have inside about the A but, at the same time, I'm not about to try and make him feel better when I can't even make myself feel better.

I am so confused right now I don't know what to think. I have gone through a VERY emotional day, lots of "talking" and my brain literally hurts from the emotion of it all

Heywyre

M - 57
H - 65
1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02
2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06
together 21 years
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Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)