thanks Jeff. I am on here again because of the hope I have and have always had. I came to the point a while back (Christmas actually) where I feel everything will be alright. I'm not saying with her and I and our M but with me. I found I tried to find happiness and peace and worth from outside sources and that always dissapointed because the need was constant but the sources weren't. Finding these things inside it is constant. If you find peace with yourself and need reassurance you just ask yourself. I know silly but fun. In the last 7 months the things that I defined my life with have been removed and I found no way to get them back. I have with a little help realized life goes on and doors open as doors close. Oh and detachment is a lifesaver.
