So sorry that H lashed out at you again...and that you feel so despondent. But the storm will avert...if you give it time. I also like that you weren't defensive with H. Unfortunately, that's all you can do for now. I said the same things that your H is saying to you to my exH after I found out about his A. I told him he had the moral of an alley cat, etc...But it was because I was so hurt and angry and everytime, I thought I was less angry and healed, the rage would explode again.
My friend, this pattern goes on for a while. Your H needs time to heal. Time, time, time. Time is your friend. I've been out of contact with my man for over 2 months now and haven't been together since July....but I know that time is my friend. There are unfortunately no instant solutions in life. It's tough, but if you really mean what you say about loving your H, you're going to have to hang tight and continue to show your remorse and love and devotion.
True love is kind. Love is patient. And it's not easy!
You have nothing to lose with being optimistic. Pessimism only leads to more unhappiness and low spirits...because you're constantly assuming the worst to happen. So keep your PMA up and continue your dedication to saving your M. It's going to take a while...but your H will heal.
As I have! I now completely respect and admire my exH and understand that his A was just a way to feel better temporarily. It doesn't make it right, but I no longer have any anger towards him. It took me more than a year to get to this place.
Continue praying...and come here and post...
Love and hugs....and lots of prayers. You're a good person. Things will turn out fine...Just have faith. Alright?
love rainbowlove ------------------------------ JG is coming back to me and we're going to have a family. Positive thinking!
