How do you feel about working more hours and being away from your family while H is continuing his gambling and staying out
For now, I have decided to let it be. H knows how I feel about it, I have told him a dozen times. To me it seems like a cheeseless tunnel because he has decided to continue doing it. In the end I cannot control his actions, he alone can do that. H has a very addictive personality, and yes he is addicted to scratch off tickets. Therefore, for now I will try to earn more and adjust our spending to accomodate this. Worrying about it only makes it worse so I am taking action.
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One day I'm happy, and then the next when I've stuffed enough that it bubbles over, he is confronted in a less than loving way.
Yes, this was me. Not anymore. As I said, I am now going to do things for myself and that includes being responsible for my own happiness. Do I want H to share in my happiness? Absolutely. Is H happy? Only he knows the answer to that. I will contribute to his happiness though. I will do things loving things for him because it makes me feel good. I will wake up everyday and choose not to be unpredictable, I will thank the stars above that I am alive and healthy and make it a good day.
